Hate leh... Wad u do man, cz... 做人做 until ppl can hate u... U can go n die le luh...
Now that all these have happened already ... Dunno u luh... 你自找的.
I still maintain that I am successful in life only if I marry baby... N spend the rest of my life with her. Period.
I need to find a way to prove to her that I truly n sincerely love her...
Oct 16, 2010
2am... And the rain.. Is falling...
What is genuine happiness??
Is it when we laugh? Is it when our eyes sparkle with that magic glow on our face? Is it the pumping of "feel good" chemicals, endorphins, that our brain produces?
Why is it I can't sleep now? What is it my eyes hurt when I close them? Why do I tear so easily nowadays?
Should I be super strong? Wouldn't that make me very insensitive? But tearing so easily.. That's a sign of weakness...
Who am I? What is my mission in life? Along the way I'm blinded by so many things... That I forget how impt ppl close to me are.. ESP baby.. Who have been quietly sacrificing...
Don't wish to compare.. 比来比去... End up both also still unhappy.. But ayyy be fair to baby luh... She really gone thru alot leh...with her character, she did so much n stuff le... Stop letting her give in to u luh...!
You forgot wad u told yourself when u saw hw happy she was last time? Always give, until she begs for u to stop, then consider taking it a notch down... U told me yrself that u gain so much more happiness giving than receiving.. Then now.. See luh!! End up who give more?? Wake up luh cz... It's time to wake up..
At this rate that u dont turn into action ur innermost desires... I think sometimes even God would have trouble reading your mind...
Is it when we laugh? Is it when our eyes sparkle with that magic glow on our face? Is it the pumping of "feel good" chemicals, endorphins, that our brain produces?
Why is it I can't sleep now? What is it my eyes hurt when I close them? Why do I tear so easily nowadays?
Should I be super strong? Wouldn't that make me very insensitive? But tearing so easily.. That's a sign of weakness...
Who am I? What is my mission in life? Along the way I'm blinded by so many things... That I forget how impt ppl close to me are.. ESP baby.. Who have been quietly sacrificing...
Don't wish to compare.. 比来比去... End up both also still unhappy.. But ayyy be fair to baby luh... She really gone thru alot leh...with her character, she did so much n stuff le... Stop letting her give in to u luh...!
You forgot wad u told yourself when u saw hw happy she was last time? Always give, until she begs for u to stop, then consider taking it a notch down... U told me yrself that u gain so much more happiness giving than receiving.. Then now.. See luh!! End up who give more?? Wake up luh cz... It's time to wake up..
At this rate that u dont turn into action ur innermost desires... I think sometimes even God would have trouble reading your mind...
Stop behaving like a kid, mr cz.. n pull ur socks up!!
I still can't sleep... Baby has been turning ard my direction many times le.. The memories keep flashing back:
- the $2 coupons.. Hehe! Who can forget the $2 coupons. Baby keep it like 宝 somemore
- the "for example" beach trip!! (wanted to throw her into the sea n play water with her, but... Hmm.. Later catch cold! No extra clothing somemore)
- the BK Spicy chicken w bacon..!! Didn't know it existed.. But it became my instant favourite! :)
- the times when baby n I cuddled to sleep, even with our hairs covering and poking on each other's skin
- "bedtimeeeee!!! Poopy bedtimeeee!!"
- the days of traveling down BKE early in the morning to fetch baby to work
- the times where I had time to find out how to soothe feet pain on the Internet.. And had baby giving me laugh number 4 when she saw the tennis ball
- the times we take picture in front of the mirror n post on fb.. Hehe!!
- "Laaa, laaaa... Laaaaaa laaaaaaa..!!!"
- the invention of "Hausa" n "Bianca"
Good times they were... Now it is time to create new good times...(regardless of whatever excuses u have)
- the $2 coupons.. Hehe! Who can forget the $2 coupons. Baby keep it like 宝 somemore
- the "for example" beach trip!! (wanted to throw her into the sea n play water with her, but... Hmm.. Later catch cold! No extra clothing somemore)
- the BK Spicy chicken w bacon..!! Didn't know it existed.. But it became my instant favourite! :)
- the times when baby n I cuddled to sleep, even with our hairs covering and poking on each other's skin
- "bedtimeeeee!!! Poopy bedtimeeee!!"
- the days of traveling down BKE early in the morning to fetch baby to work
- the times where I had time to find out how to soothe feet pain on the Internet.. And had baby giving me laugh number 4 when she saw the tennis ball
- the times we take picture in front of the mirror n post on fb.. Hehe!!
- "Laaa, laaaa... Laaaaaa laaaaaaa..!!!"
- the invention of "Hausa" n "Bianca"
Good times they were... Now it is time to create new good times...(regardless of whatever excuses u have)
Sometimes I wish my girlfriend checks my phone more thoroughly
Then maybe she'd see my plans...
Then maybe she'd know my intentions...
Then maybe I won't keep feeling like I'm going to cough my heart out when anything regarding breakup gets mentioned (it's a really sucky feeling to haf)
Mr cz Aka mr selfish... Stop thinking abt yourself n look at the person u love the most.
Ppl go thru so much shit le still must clear shit for u ah? Ay... U got hands got legs, cannot clear ur own shit ah?? Think of a way luh! Dunno how u get your 1st class honors de loh.. PUI ah!
Then maybe she'd know my intentions...
Then maybe I won't keep feeling like I'm going to cough my heart out when anything regarding breakup gets mentioned (it's a really sucky feeling to haf)
Mr cz Aka mr selfish... Stop thinking abt yourself n look at the person u love the most.
Ppl go thru so much shit le still must clear shit for u ah? Ay... U got hands got legs, cannot clear ur own shit ah?? Think of a way luh! Dunno how u get your 1st class honors de loh.. PUI ah!
Talk you idiot, talk! Keep quiet=death u idiot! Stupid cz!! *bashes cz's head*
Dunno what for study until so high, end up even expressing own feelings and intentions also so hard. I guess... I probably think too highly of myself already. seems like I really cannot multitask well.
Never had time to do anything worth mentioning for baby... All the time at work is all work, the time at home is just rest n sleep.. The time on the road is spent looking at the road.
I think no matter how innocent the car is, it certainly had brought about much misery. Sure it saves time, but.. Iya.. Dun even feel like recalling all the incidents le.
wonder if baby reads my blog.. Heh..
Can't sleep now... I bet baby also.. Saw her peek at me while I was typing. Hope she doesn't think I haf a mistress outside.. But then again, God.. You be my witness luh.. Don't talk about who big or what now.. As a fren to me ah.. Do u think I'll ever wanna find someone else to spend the rest of my life with? I really dunno how to assure baby that I'd marry her, bring her to England with me, have family with her, and remain faithful to her for the rest of my life. I'm sure u know right? You being the creator and all.. U see my intentions.. Ok luh, fair enough... I know she's been taking alot of shit from my side.. Can understand why she'd feel this way..
Haizz... What to do... You created me with a penis mah... The man has the responsibility to take everything, like a man. It's like going back to sec sch days... When I shouldn't express my feelings as raw and true as I am feeling.
No girl likes "sian ah". So probably "I'm stressed" is about the same also. gotta give also right? Cannot always take...
Aiyah... In this world, who not stressed.. No matter how stressed I think I am, there's always someone out there more stressed than me luh.. Don't find excuse mr cz .. Or.. Hmm.. Should I say... Future Dr cz? Hehe!
Sound like I'm freaking talking to myself and consoling myself sia.. Thanks angel cz. As for u, devil cz.. Fuck u!!
I need to get a hang of myself. Nothing is too big for me to bear.. So stop whining already..!! And blardy keep your promises luh!!! Last time Dad always don't keep promises.. And u told urself u don't want like him liddat.. Look wad you've done again? Abysmal, cz... Abysmal..!! *shakes head*
Cz... U gotta be strong u know...
Remember the time u just anyhow just roughly plan time to do the Kinematics Exam paper? Oh! And the MP2001 paper?? U told urself u learnt ur lesson on time management le.. THEN????!!!
Tell u hor.. You bully other ppl I don't care, u don't go bully my baby hor! U know how much she values punctuality u still hvent wake up ah? Yea I know u got work. So what if cannot finish? Who is to blame?? U urself wad!! Dont let others suffer bcos of your 烂-ness!
Hmm... Eyes also can't close... Wan sleep also can't sleep... Dunno luh... I really love my baby... But probably I show in the wrong way..
No excuses mr cz... No excuses... Wrong means wrong...
what is happiness? Happiness is
Never had time to do anything worth mentioning for baby... All the time at work is all work, the time at home is just rest n sleep.. The time on the road is spent looking at the road.
I think no matter how innocent the car is, it certainly had brought about much misery. Sure it saves time, but.. Iya.. Dun even feel like recalling all the incidents le.
wonder if baby reads my blog.. Heh..
Can't sleep now... I bet baby also.. Saw her peek at me while I was typing. Hope she doesn't think I haf a mistress outside.. But then again, God.. You be my witness luh.. Don't talk about who big or what now.. As a fren to me ah.. Do u think I'll ever wanna find someone else to spend the rest of my life with? I really dunno how to assure baby that I'd marry her, bring her to England with me, have family with her, and remain faithful to her for the rest of my life. I'm sure u know right? You being the creator and all.. U see my intentions.. Ok luh, fair enough... I know she's been taking alot of shit from my side.. Can understand why she'd feel this way..
Haizz... What to do... You created me with a penis mah... The man has the responsibility to take everything, like a man. It's like going back to sec sch days... When I shouldn't express my feelings as raw and true as I am feeling.
No girl likes "sian ah". So probably "I'm stressed" is about the same also. gotta give also right? Cannot always take...
Aiyah... In this world, who not stressed.. No matter how stressed I think I am, there's always someone out there more stressed than me luh.. Don't find excuse mr cz .. Or.. Hmm.. Should I say... Future Dr cz? Hehe!
Sound like I'm freaking talking to myself and consoling myself sia.. Thanks angel cz. As for u, devil cz.. Fuck u!!
I need to get a hang of myself. Nothing is too big for me to bear.. So stop whining already..!! And blardy keep your promises luh!!! Last time Dad always don't keep promises.. And u told urself u don't want like him liddat.. Look wad you've done again? Abysmal, cz... Abysmal..!! *shakes head*
Cz... U gotta be strong u know...
Remember the time u just anyhow just roughly plan time to do the Kinematics Exam paper? Oh! And the MP2001 paper?? U told urself u learnt ur lesson on time management le.. THEN????!!!
Tell u hor.. You bully other ppl I don't care, u don't go bully my baby hor! U know how much she values punctuality u still hvent wake up ah? Yea I know u got work. So what if cannot finish? Who is to blame?? U urself wad!! Dont let others suffer bcos of your 烂-ness!
Hmm... Eyes also can't close... Wan sleep also can't sleep... Dunno luh... I really love my baby... But probably I show in the wrong way..
No excuses mr cz... No excuses... Wrong means wrong...
what is happiness? Happiness is
Sep 20, 2010
bad dream :(
I could only remember certain portions of the dream.
Baby was crying and I was asking her what happened. After several rounds of asking and re-asking, she finally told me, "I just gave poopy away luh... and i'm very sad cos I miss him very much".
Startled, I asked her why she wanted to do that. She replied in a soft voice that she thought poopy was the reason for my flu.
:( :( :(
Baby... it's totally not the reason leh... :( I love poopy like my son also and I would never think my problems were ever his fault... :(
Baby was crying and I was asking her what happened. After several rounds of asking and re-asking, she finally told me, "I just gave poopy away luh... and i'm very sad cos I miss him very much".
Startled, I asked her why she wanted to do that. She replied in a soft voice that she thought poopy was the reason for my flu.
:( :( :(
Baby... it's totally not the reason leh... :( I love poopy like my son also and I would never think my problems were ever his fault... :(
Jul 13, 2010
Why you are bigger than you think
1) I learn most of life's most impt lessons from u even though you're younger than me
2) You have your own stand and it is unwavering, decisive and confident
3) I learnt the meaning of love from u
4) You show the attributes of being a mum who is even more motherly than most mums i see, even though you're not one yourself
5) You are strong willed and positive, even in the midst of negativity
6) You can outtalk a lawyer, and think of something even a lawyer could'nt think of
7) I don't even bother looking at other women not bcos I cant, but bcos I already have the most beautiful one (beauty = 10% looks 90% character)
8) You can always give me strength just by talking to me
9) You are the most creative girl I have ever known
10) You can make me smile even if you don't do anything
11) I experienced success in teaching piano from your advice
12) I get along better with people from listening to your philosophy of life (to make a difference)
13) Your ideas are clear and impactful
14) You are so confident in yourself that you are sure the criticisms were a joke
15) You can learn to tie a bun in so many ways!! (and better than the trainer at that)
16) You can master a piano piece that takes a piano student 3 weeks or more just to play acceptably
17) You can tell wad I want to say just by looking at the shape of my mouth
18) You can laugh so heartily and just rejoice in the happiness of life
19) You can multitask even though u think you couldn't (fry egg, wash dish, serve guest, refill stuff, check in/out, smile etc)
20) You can think super freaking fast
21) You appreciate the small things people do for u
22) You treat people who treat u nice, doubly nice
23) Your thinking is more matured than 2 people who can add up to > 100 years old
24) You see things in ways I cant
25) You can have a thousand and one ways to make me smile
26) You are the most humourous girl I ever know and will know
27) You are so good I want you forever n ever
28) You make me realise my strong pts and weak pts
29) You are so sensitive and caring to pets
30) You are a believer of positivity
31) You can handle and coordinate 5 people's work by yourself
32) You can get up so strongly so many times even after being shot down so many times
33) You value other people's opinions
34) You can still work even with a cramp that numbs your legs
35) You can still stand up for yourself in the face of adversary
36) Your english improved tremendously at the age where people just cannot learn another language
37) You can go one whole day without eating (but u better stop doing that arh seriously)
38) Your words are very powerful and influential
39) You think u are small when you really aren't
40) You are very thoughtful
41) You have a holistic mindset, can think of many aspects at once
42) You are extremely observant even up to the smallest detail
43) You are brave and willing to fight for what is right
44) You are direct and yet unhurtful
45) You are not revengeful (purposely give others the taste of their own medicine)
46) You can be elegant, cute, sexy and funny at the same time
47) You are very clear of what you want to do when you do it (everything can be done in perfect sequence without the need for pacing here n there)
48) You can make yourself smile just to let me feel better even though u feel horrid inside
49) You know what to say and when to say things
50) You are the world's best dancer (can even dance with london bridge is falling down, -.-)
51) You analyze things very well
52) You provide very good suggestions to solve or handle problems
53) You will go all the way just to convenience me
54) You can remember all the things you see from my camera and identify which ones were mine
55) You can always remember where I park my car
56) Your concept of love is so revolutionary, it inspires me (Love is not about finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an inperfect person perfectly)
57) You are the best conversant i've ever known
58) You hold the longest MSN talk with me that can be hardly rivalled by anyone (no one is even remotely close to that)
59) You have a very good fashion sense (know which colour best to match with which colour etc)
60) You can know what i'm thinking just by looking at my expression! *gasp!* (how pro!!!)
61) You can appreciate music very well, even when your expertise lies in dance
62) You look cute even when you sleep
63) Heck, you look cute even when u're sian with the -.- expression
64) You are really super duper creative (I know I mentioned this pt already, but must mention again cos really very creative!!)
65) You can be so concerned about me smtimes that my heart just melt and i feel like hugging you like a bolster like forever n ever until the end of time lor
66) I'm already feeling very hyped up and positive typing up to no. 66 of your positive and bigger-than-you-think traits
67) Your time management is excellent (brilliant estimate of time to wake up n go off for work)
68) You can calculate Ringgit to SGD SO FAST!!
69) You can distinguish tastes and appreciate food like a professional chef man...
70) You can remember how to pronounce a word properly just from 1 single reminder a few weeks back
71) On the topic of "big", yours are really bigger than you think leh... like... u know... your... u know... heh :P
72) You have at least 71 "bigger-than-you-think" character descriptions!!! woohoo!!
73) You are mindful of things that happen around you and take mental note of those things
74) You are extremely good at negotiating price! (the incident with the camera-less phone uncle!)
75) You are super hot even w/o makeup on (like the colddddd.... and di de da HOTTT!! sssss!!!)
76) You got a 3-in-3 success rate for interviews, WAY TO GO!!! :)
77) You can click-clock, click-clock in super high heels and walk fast even...
78) You have a very, VERY big heart. (one of the many, many reasons I really love you for)
79) You are an excellent story teller, so full of emotions and expressions..!! (love to listen to u tell me about ur work experience :D)
80) You think that 80 no more liao ar? hven't lor..!!
81) You are super PRO ... when it comes to making me feel good, oh yea...
82) You are so big, that it's impossible that I would ever think of not wanting you
83) My life already revolves around you, but I still feel that it's not enough
84) You change position in bed (while sleeping) more n more often until suddenly you wake up (heehee.. just an observation)
85) You rather freeze to death than die from heat
86) You are the most noble girl I've ever known
87) Your skin is soft and smooth like doufu... woo yahhh...
88) I can kiss you like 20 times and still find it not enough
89) Your fingers are really powerful! U give a super super good shoulder massage!! :P
90) You can still go work with totally numb toes... baby... haiyoh... really poor thing leh..
91) You want me to stop working and sleep beside u by keep Sedi-A-ing.. silly ger...
92) I believe with you, I can achieve more than I can ever achieve. YEAHHHH!! :)
93) You really know how to appreciate cheese... 佩服...佩服!
94) You know where the good food are!! (Marks & Spencer, Kim Gary, Macwings, BK's Spicy Chicken...u're good leh baby...!)
95) You can remember and understand all my RTs and T-Up issues even though they are so not-your-domain of knowledge
96) You somehow know when I'm lost on the road even though u claim you don't know how to go... sixth sense?? o.O
97) Your eyes... are the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen
98) Your soul... is the most perfect I've ever 体会-ded..
99) Your mind... is the most nimble and creative I've ever 见识-ded
100) You know you have more than just the 100 positive + "you-are-bigger-than-you-can-ever-think" traits... but u're still humble and think u don't
2) You have your own stand and it is unwavering, decisive and confident
3) I learnt the meaning of love from u
4) You show the attributes of being a mum who is even more motherly than most mums i see, even though you're not one yourself
5) You are strong willed and positive, even in the midst of negativity
6) You can outtalk a lawyer, and think of something even a lawyer could'nt think of
7) I don't even bother looking at other women not bcos I cant, but bcos I already have the most beautiful one (beauty = 10% looks 90% character)
8) You can always give me strength just by talking to me
9) You are the most creative girl I have ever known
10) You can make me smile even if you don't do anything
11) I experienced success in teaching piano from your advice
12) I get along better with people from listening to your philosophy of life (to make a difference)
13) Your ideas are clear and impactful
14) You are so confident in yourself that you are sure the criticisms were a joke
15) You can learn to tie a bun in so many ways!! (and better than the trainer at that)
16) You can master a piano piece that takes a piano student 3 weeks or more just to play acceptably
17) You can tell wad I want to say just by looking at the shape of my mouth
18) You can laugh so heartily and just rejoice in the happiness of life
19) You can multitask even though u think you couldn't (fry egg, wash dish, serve guest, refill stuff, check in/out, smile etc)
20) You can think super freaking fast
21) You appreciate the small things people do for u
22) You treat people who treat u nice, doubly nice
23) Your thinking is more matured than 2 people who can add up to > 100 years old
24) You see things in ways I cant
25) You can have a thousand and one ways to make me smile
26) You are the most humourous girl I ever know and will know
27) You are so good I want you forever n ever
28) You make me realise my strong pts and weak pts
29) You are so sensitive and caring to pets
30) You are a believer of positivity
31) You can handle and coordinate 5 people's work by yourself
32) You can get up so strongly so many times even after being shot down so many times
33) You value other people's opinions
34) You can still work even with a cramp that numbs your legs
35) You can still stand up for yourself in the face of adversary
36) Your english improved tremendously at the age where people just cannot learn another language
37) You can go one whole day without eating (but u better stop doing that arh seriously)
38) Your words are very powerful and influential
39) You think u are small when you really aren't
40) You are very thoughtful
41) You have a holistic mindset, can think of many aspects at once
42) You are extremely observant even up to the smallest detail
43) You are brave and willing to fight for what is right
44) You are direct and yet unhurtful
45) You are not revengeful (purposely give others the taste of their own medicine)
46) You can be elegant, cute, sexy and funny at the same time
47) You are very clear of what you want to do when you do it (everything can be done in perfect sequence without the need for pacing here n there)
48) You can make yourself smile just to let me feel better even though u feel horrid inside
49) You know what to say and when to say things
50) You are the world's best dancer (can even dance with london bridge is falling down, -.-)
51) You analyze things very well
52) You provide very good suggestions to solve or handle problems
53) You will go all the way just to convenience me
54) You can remember all the things you see from my camera and identify which ones were mine
55) You can always remember where I park my car
56) Your concept of love is so revolutionary, it inspires me (Love is not about finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an inperfect person perfectly)
57) You are the best conversant i've ever known
58) You hold the longest MSN talk with me that can be hardly rivalled by anyone (no one is even remotely close to that)
59) You have a very good fashion sense (know which colour best to match with which colour etc)
60) You can know what i'm thinking just by looking at my expression! *gasp!* (how pro!!!)
61) You can appreciate music very well, even when your expertise lies in dance
62) You look cute even when you sleep
63) Heck, you look cute even when u're sian with the -.- expression
64) You are really super duper creative (I know I mentioned this pt already, but must mention again cos really very creative!!)
65) You can be so concerned about me smtimes that my heart just melt and i feel like hugging you like a bolster like forever n ever until the end of time lor
66) I'm already feeling very hyped up and positive typing up to no. 66 of your positive and bigger-than-you-think traits
67) Your time management is excellent (brilliant estimate of time to wake up n go off for work)
68) You can calculate Ringgit to SGD SO FAST!!
69) You can distinguish tastes and appreciate food like a professional chef man...
70) You can remember how to pronounce a word properly just from 1 single reminder a few weeks back
71) On the topic of "big", yours are really bigger than you think leh... like... u know... your... u know... heh :P
72) You have at least 71 "bigger-than-you-think" character descriptions!!! woohoo!!
73) You are mindful of things that happen around you and take mental note of those things
74) You are extremely good at negotiating price! (the incident with the camera-less phone uncle!)
75) You are super hot even w/o makeup on (like the colddddd.... and di de da HOTTT!! sssss!!!)
76) You got a 3-in-3 success rate for interviews, WAY TO GO!!! :)
77) You can click-clock, click-clock in super high heels and walk fast even...
78) You have a very, VERY big heart. (one of the many, many reasons I really love you for)
79) You are an excellent story teller, so full of emotions and expressions..!! (love to listen to u tell me about ur work experience :D)
80) You think that 80 no more liao ar? hven't lor..!!
81) You are super PRO ... when it comes to making me feel good, oh yea...
82) You are so big, that it's impossible that I would ever think of not wanting you
83) My life already revolves around you, but I still feel that it's not enough
84) You change position in bed (while sleeping) more n more often until suddenly you wake up (heehee.. just an observation)
85) You rather freeze to death than die from heat
86) You are the most noble girl I've ever known
87) Your skin is soft and smooth like doufu... woo yahhh...
88) I can kiss you like 20 times and still find it not enough
89) Your fingers are really powerful! U give a super super good shoulder massage!! :P
90) You can still go work with totally numb toes... baby... haiyoh... really poor thing leh..
91) You want me to stop working and sleep beside u by keep Sedi-A-ing.. silly ger...
92) I believe with you, I can achieve more than I can ever achieve. YEAHHHH!! :)
93) You really know how to appreciate cheese... 佩服...佩服!
94) You know where the good food are!! (Marks & Spencer, Kim Gary, Macwings, BK's Spicy Chicken...u're good leh baby...!)
95) You can remember and understand all my RTs and T-Up issues even though they are so not-your-domain of knowledge
96) You somehow know when I'm lost on the road even though u claim you don't know how to go... sixth sense?? o.O
97) Your eyes... are the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen
98) Your soul... is the most perfect I've ever 体会-ded..
99) Your mind... is the most nimble and creative I've ever 见识-ded
100) You know you have more than just the 100 positive + "you-are-bigger-than-you-can-ever-think" traits... but u're still humble and think u don't
Jun 30, 2010
Jun 13, 2010
can't get enough
... of your shux-a-totemo
... of your LAAA-laaa-LaaAa-LaaAaa
... of kissing u again n again n again...
... of holding uu....
... of looking into your eyes...
... of thinking about you...
... of crapping and joking with you....
... of an-suaning u! :P
... of holding your hands in mine...
... of u sayanging me...
... of preparing breakfast with u...
... of picking you up after work...
... of telling u that I love you... (and I really do!!)
... of playing with poopy and xue-er with u...
... of hearing you say "做么..."
... of u scolding me for washing clothes...
... of buying stuff with u...
... of sitting close to u at every food restaurant...
... of u skipping and 38-ing with me outside...
... of putting milo and oreo into your bag... (maybe not the same snack everyday..)
... of driving thru with u...
... of acting miss swan with u...
... of using computer together with u...
... of u...
Still very in love with nana darling... and still wanna be with u with the rest of my life..!!
Wanna design our matrimonial house together with u...
Miss u babyyyyyy..!!!
:)
... of your LAAA-laaa-LaaAa-LaaAaa
... of kissing u again n again n again...
... of holding uu....
... of looking into your eyes...
... of thinking about you...
... of crapping and joking with you....
... of an-suaning u! :P
... of holding your hands in mine...
... of u sayanging me...
... of preparing breakfast with u...
... of picking you up after work...
... of telling u that I love you... (and I really do!!)
... of playing with poopy and xue-er with u...
... of hearing you say "做么..."
... of u scolding me for washing clothes...
... of buying stuff with u...
... of sitting close to u at every food restaurant...
... of u skipping and 38-ing with me outside...
... of putting milo and oreo into your bag... (maybe not the same snack everyday..)
... of driving thru with u...
... of acting miss swan with u...
... of using computer together with u...
... of u...
Still very in love with nana darling... and still wanna be with u with the rest of my life..!!
Wanna design our matrimonial house together with u...
Miss u babyyyyyy..!!!
:)
May 30, 2010
I was wondering...
- Why baby's blog no comment box.. heh
- How come baby can be so cuteeeee!!! (esp when I hear baby say "做么")
- How come we can come up with "大便王"..HAHA!! OMG! Sooooo fun luh!!
- Why I can't stop smiling when I see my darling :)
- Why I can't stop wanting to kiss you
- How come I keep wanting to see you even when I'm meeting you every single day!!
- How come I feel we're already married for a long time liaoz
I was wondering... wondering... :P
- How come baby can be so cuteeeee!!! (esp when I hear baby say "做么")
- How come we can come up with "大便王"..HAHA!! OMG! Sooooo fun luh!!
- Why I can't stop smiling when I see my darling :)
- Why I can't stop wanting to kiss you
- How come I keep wanting to see you even when I'm meeting you every single day!!
- How come I feel we're already married for a long time liaoz
I was wondering... wondering... :P
May 24, 2010
I love you...
1. for making me smile constantly
2. for being so cute (the hairclip! and your laugh no. 4, and your cutey voice)
3. for laughing at my silliness (the 3d glasses)
4. for providing solutions for me when i need help (reward system for piano students)
5. for coming up with names (like hush bao bei)
6. for secretly buying ingredients to cook sandwich for me (sooo touched!!!)
7. for singing so sweetly b4 we sleep
8. for liking the songs i like
9. for appreciating the way i sing
10. for being as siao gina as me
11. for being so cheeky (esp with hush bao bei!)
12. for accepting me for who i am
13. for thinking i'm shuai when i wear long sleeves
14. for thinking i'm sporty when i wear singlet
15. for scolding me when i took 2 straws for the drink
16. for saying that i'm 38
17. for being so funny
18. for being so witty (think of something hard)
19. for laughing out loud when i try to entertain you
20. for sharing all your work life with me
21. for calling me baby in the sweetest manner
22. for trusting me with the key
23. for not making a big fuss when i lost it
24. for being happy with me when i finally found it back
25. for secretly buying wallet for me
26. for getting mother's day present with me
27. for eating fillet and ice milo just bcos i like it
28. for eating dumpling even though u're not a big fan of it and knowing i like it too
29. for being so excited when i bring u to the movies
30. for liking sweet popcorn as well
31. for understanding the reasons for me being late
32. for hugging me from behind
33. for winking at me (like miss swan.. heh!!!)
34. for your 4 major smiles
35. for trying to protect my in-grown toenail from other pple
36. for sayang-ing me while assuring me
37. for sayang-ing me after u piak me
38. for hugging me so tight and making me feel like i'm the one u really really really treasure
39. for laughing at me when I keep washing clothes
40. for willing to get married and haf children with me even though u didnt want at first
41. for being so strong and insist u'll be fine by the next day
42. for having beautiful eyes
43. for supporting me with my decisions
44. for trying to 杀价 for me to get a cheaper hp
45. for accomodating to my plans to study or work
46. for wanting to know what is bothering me
47. for reading me like a book
48. for letting me know what is bothering u after some probing
49. for looking at me into my eyes when I talk
50. for wanting me to be yours
51. for thinking of saving money for me
52. for making eating at the coffeeshop as special as eating other places
53. for recommending the chilli chicken, BK burger, mcwings and egg sandwich
54. for letting me hold your hand in the car and holding mine so dearly
55. for buying cornflakes and milk for me even though u dont like them
56. for hitting me when I laugh at your silly entics
57. for tickling me until i cannot take it, and still continue to tickle me when i thought u had stopped
58. for being very very very understanding and accomodative to me
59. for loving my family just because they are my family
60. for the look u give me when we... play :)
61. for saying "whattttt..." or "什么..." when I look at u
62. for wearing my long sleeve shirt when i told u that u looked sexy in it
63. for the half smile half dun smile look when i say smth touching to u
64. for enjoying urself so much in bintan and focus on having a good time with me
65. for msging me "kimchiii!!"
66. for spaming sms-es when i miss u so much
67. for remembering everything i say
68. for arranging my collar when it's messed up
69. for looking at me like i'm your white horse prince all the time
70. for trying out the mayonaise and eggplant when i said it's nice even though u dun like
71. for liking the eggs and salmon my mum cooked so much
72. for buying apples for me and reminding me to bring them to work
73. for your beautiful fingers and cute hand (with the very 细 hairs)
74. for being so concerned when I sneeze (and turn the aircon up)
75. for being worried for me being too tired after RT
76. for scolding me when i suggested going for 3 RTs in a row
77. for having so much faith in my abilities
78. for trying to make up a story just so that u can bring mothers' day cake to my house
79. for trusting me to go into ur house
80. for naming xue'er and poopy with my surname
81. for addressing me as papa in front of xue'er and poopy
82. for caring so much for me even when u're sick yourself
83. for liking to cuddle and hug
84. for telling me all about your dad
85. for letting me massage your feet when i offer to
86. for kissing me good morning and good night (when we wake up and before we sleep)
87. for letting me kiss u non-stop
88. for the encouragement you give me for my work
89. for sticking around even when u're feeling insecure yourself
90. for wanting to be with me forever n ever
91. for being so proud of who i am
92. for wanting to bring me to your cousin's wedding
93. for listening to my explanations even when u're still angry
94. for throwing the pillow on the floor and shirt into the bin just because i say i'm affected
95. for not expecting me to change (i also dun wan u to change, i just wan the original nana... if i've done or said anything that suggests otherwise, it's not intended)
96. for saying the food i recommend is nice
97. for being happy when i bring you to new places
98. for not judging me like what others are doing
99. for completing me in ways i cant myself
100. for loving me also
I Love You, Nana Darling..
I want to be with you till the end of time..
I want to be as thoughtful, if not more thoughtful than I am to you in the many many years of future we will share together
I want to grow old with you...
I want to have a more wants with you..more reasons to love you...I want a million reasons, a billion, a gizillion reasons...
I want you to feel better...
I want you to be happy...
2. for being so cute (the hairclip! and your laugh no. 4, and your cutey voice)
3. for laughing at my silliness (the 3d glasses)
4. for providing solutions for me when i need help (reward system for piano students)
5. for coming up with names (like hush bao bei)
6. for secretly buying ingredients to cook sandwich for me (sooo touched!!!)
7. for singing so sweetly b4 we sleep
8. for liking the songs i like
9. for appreciating the way i sing
10. for being as siao gina as me
11. for being so cheeky (esp with hush bao bei!)
12. for accepting me for who i am
13. for thinking i'm shuai when i wear long sleeves
14. for thinking i'm sporty when i wear singlet
15. for scolding me when i took 2 straws for the drink
16. for saying that i'm 38
17. for being so funny
18. for being so witty (think of something hard)
19. for laughing out loud when i try to entertain you
20. for sharing all your work life with me
21. for calling me baby in the sweetest manner
22. for trusting me with the key
23. for not making a big fuss when i lost it
24. for being happy with me when i finally found it back
25. for secretly buying wallet for me
26. for getting mother's day present with me
27. for eating fillet and ice milo just bcos i like it
28. for eating dumpling even though u're not a big fan of it and knowing i like it too
29. for being so excited when i bring u to the movies
30. for liking sweet popcorn as well
31. for understanding the reasons for me being late
32. for hugging me from behind
33. for winking at me (like miss swan.. heh!!!)
34. for your 4 major smiles
35. for trying to protect my in-grown toenail from other pple
36. for sayang-ing me while assuring me
37. for sayang-ing me after u piak me
38. for hugging me so tight and making me feel like i'm the one u really really really treasure
39. for laughing at me when I keep washing clothes
40. for willing to get married and haf children with me even though u didnt want at first
41. for being so strong and insist u'll be fine by the next day
42. for having beautiful eyes
43. for supporting me with my decisions
44. for trying to 杀价 for me to get a cheaper hp
45. for accomodating to my plans to study or work
46. for wanting to know what is bothering me
47. for reading me like a book
48. for letting me know what is bothering u after some probing
49. for looking at me into my eyes when I talk
50. for wanting me to be yours
51. for thinking of saving money for me
52. for making eating at the coffeeshop as special as eating other places
53. for recommending the chilli chicken, BK burger, mcwings and egg sandwich
54. for letting me hold your hand in the car and holding mine so dearly
55. for buying cornflakes and milk for me even though u dont like them
56. for hitting me when I laugh at your silly entics
57. for tickling me until i cannot take it, and still continue to tickle me when i thought u had stopped
58. for being very very very understanding and accomodative to me
59. for loving my family just because they are my family
60. for the look u give me when we... play :)
61. for saying "whattttt..." or "什么..." when I look at u
62. for wearing my long sleeve shirt when i told u that u looked sexy in it
63. for the half smile half dun smile look when i say smth touching to u
64. for enjoying urself so much in bintan and focus on having a good time with me
65. for msging me "kimchiii!!"
66. for spaming sms-es when i miss u so much
67. for remembering everything i say
68. for arranging my collar when it's messed up
69. for looking at me like i'm your white horse prince all the time
70. for trying out the mayonaise and eggplant when i said it's nice even though u dun like
71. for liking the eggs and salmon my mum cooked so much
72. for buying apples for me and reminding me to bring them to work
73. for your beautiful fingers and cute hand (with the very 细 hairs)
74. for being so concerned when I sneeze (and turn the aircon up)
75. for being worried for me being too tired after RT
76. for scolding me when i suggested going for 3 RTs in a row
77. for having so much faith in my abilities
78. for trying to make up a story just so that u can bring mothers' day cake to my house
79. for trusting me to go into ur house
80. for naming xue'er and poopy with my surname
81. for addressing me as papa in front of xue'er and poopy
82. for caring so much for me even when u're sick yourself
83. for liking to cuddle and hug
84. for telling me all about your dad
85. for letting me massage your feet when i offer to
86. for kissing me good morning and good night (when we wake up and before we sleep)
87. for letting me kiss u non-stop
88. for the encouragement you give me for my work
89. for sticking around even when u're feeling insecure yourself
90. for wanting to be with me forever n ever
91. for being so proud of who i am
92. for wanting to bring me to your cousin's wedding
93. for listening to my explanations even when u're still angry
94. for throwing the pillow on the floor and shirt into the bin just because i say i'm affected
95. for not expecting me to change (i also dun wan u to change, i just wan the original nana... if i've done or said anything that suggests otherwise, it's not intended)
96. for saying the food i recommend is nice
97. for being happy when i bring you to new places
98. for not judging me like what others are doing
99. for completing me in ways i cant myself
100. for loving me also
I Love You, Nana Darling..
I want to be with you till the end of time..
I want to be as thoughtful, if not more thoughtful than I am to you in the many many years of future we will share together
I want to grow old with you...
I want to have a more wants with you..more reasons to love you...I want a million reasons, a billion, a gizillion reasons...
I want you to feel better...
I want you to be happy...
越说越烦
sorry baby, for saying the wrong things and not understanding u
I know now.. I won't talk about it anymore
I know now.. I won't talk about it anymore
May 20, 2010
words
Words can never fully and accurately reflect the actual understanding, situations or feelings.
It's the time when no word can fully describe something that tears form, sleep diminishes and coughing starts.
It's the time when no word can fully describe something that tears form, sleep diminishes and coughing starts.
Nov 8, 2008
I made a girl cry
>.<
Ok, first things first, it wasn't intentional. But then again, I was being naughty luh. She had a few bad habits that were quite funny, so just made fun of her. When she didn't react, I thought she didn't hear it and said it in a more "cruel" way. It was then that I heard sobbing sounds. Before that, she had already started to accumulate tears in her eyes. (yah, that was when I thought she couldn't hear... Oops..)
I stood stunned there for a second as I looked at her. Her face cringed and tears flowed down her cheeks. My first words were "I'm sooo, soooo sorry... " (duh!) The consolation wasn't just verbal. Instinctively, I just went over to her and hugged her to assure her that it was sincere. We continued hugging while she sniffed and sobbed, as her tears slowly wet my shoulders. I didn't know what else to say except, "I'm really so sorry, I didn't mean it..."
Found out later she was undergoing a bad patch. Normally she can take such jokes de... hmm... Anyways, yups. Though she cried, we became closer after that.
HAHA! hmm... must be wondering what I'm laughing about right? ASK ME... heh..!
Ok, first things first, it wasn't intentional. But then again, I was being naughty luh. She had a few bad habits that were quite funny, so just made fun of her. When she didn't react, I thought she didn't hear it and said it in a more "cruel" way. It was then that I heard sobbing sounds. Before that, she had already started to accumulate tears in her eyes. (yah, that was when I thought she couldn't hear... Oops..)
I stood stunned there for a second as I looked at her. Her face cringed and tears flowed down her cheeks. My first words were "I'm sooo, soooo sorry... " (duh!) The consolation wasn't just verbal. Instinctively, I just went over to her and hugged her to assure her that it was sincere. We continued hugging while she sniffed and sobbed, as her tears slowly wet my shoulders. I didn't know what else to say except, "I'm really so sorry, I didn't mean it..."
Found out later she was undergoing a bad patch. Normally she can take such jokes de... hmm... Anyways, yups. Though she cried, we became closer after that.
HAHA! hmm... must be wondering what I'm laughing about right? ASK ME... heh..!
Oct 15, 2008
Convincing 50,000 people to part with $20
It starts here.
If you think it's worth $20 to obtain knowledge you might not ever get in your life,
If you think you will go all out to solve your acne problems,
If you think investing less than 3% (that's 2 times less than GST!) of a typical part time job month pay can make u 300% healthier,
Then think no more! Click on the following link!
http://www.productsupplycenter.com/web102279
Haha! I get $ from sales of this product luh! But hor, seriously, I am going to try it myself when I get the time to read this 102 page e-book! Talking about value for $!
Ok enough marketing for now. More marketing gimmicks to follow! Watch this space! =)
If you think it's worth $20 to obtain knowledge you might not ever get in your life,
If you think you will go all out to solve your acne problems,
If you think investing less than 3% (that's 2 times less than GST!) of a typical part time job month pay can make u 300% healthier,
Then think no more! Click on the following link!
http://www.productsupplycenter.com/web102279
Haha! I get $ from sales of this product luh! But hor, seriously, I am going to try it myself when I get the time to read this 102 page e-book! Talking about value for $!
Ok enough marketing for now. More marketing gimmicks to follow! Watch this space! =)
Oct 9, 2008
Should I choose to believe...
Rewind the clock and go back to the 2nd week of August. My aunt kinda signed me up for some 算命 session at TPY Hub.
The "master" told me my 8 Characters are one of the worst he has seen. GOsh!
1) A high propensity for liver/blood diseases
2) Doomed to fail in business
3) Doomed to be divorced with my wife and cause her to go mad
The only remedies I can do for myself:
a) Detox
b) Avoid being entrepreneurial
c) Marry a divorced lady, preferably with kids. Kinda don't really understand the logic
Anyways, his analysis of my "standard characteristics" are:
i) Super Duper Stubborn. Always insistent on my own way of doing things. One result of which is I will have problems at work, especially with my collegues and superiors. Another repercussion is that although I might be able to get along okay with my gf, she'll suffer when she weds me cos I'm supposed to be so stubborn she'll go mad.. -.-. Ok, then he said I will definitely listen his words, one ear in, the other ear out. Who's the stubborn one here now??
ii) Never studies and will just go along with life with average grades.
Ok. At this point, let me elaborate first by saying he had an assistant who sat in during the "session". I didn't say anything much while the "master" was talking, just silently nodding away while he was in a sort of finger pointing, accusing tone of my character. After that session, the assistant brought us (my aunt, mum and myself) to another room.
At that point, I highlighted that the master might not be accurate cos although my results were mediocre till JC, I definitely think that my first class honours was not a fluke. Guess what the assistant said to me when I told him I did pretty well in Uni. "Oh, the master said that actually if u put in effort, you'll do very well!"
WHAT CRAP LORH! I took down all of what the master said and he said nothing of that sort.
Next, when he was recommending packages for me to "reborn" my 8 characters, which was like 12k! he couldn't even maintain eye contact with us! He was becoming more n more like a liar. Not only was he lousy at crapping, he was lousy as a salesman! Not that I'm advocating lying without battling an eyelid but... mmm...
I had seconds thoughts about the whole affair even before I entered his office. That place was huge! Decorated with lavish decors and rich lighting, fully air-conditioned and carpeted office space. The whole place was bigger than the whole row of my sch classrooms back in secondary school. It seemed that sales was the primary driving force for that "company", instead of consultations. No matter, it was more like a business than anything else.
If I were to learn anything from this, it would be to try to prevent these disasters from happening. Believe it or not, what do you think?
The "master" told me my 8 Characters are one of the worst he has seen. GOsh!
1) A high propensity for liver/blood diseases
2) Doomed to fail in business
3) Doomed to be divorced with my wife and cause her to go mad
The only remedies I can do for myself:
a) Detox
b) Avoid being entrepreneurial
c) Marry a divorced lady, preferably with kids. Kinda don't really understand the logic
Anyways, his analysis of my "standard characteristics" are:
i) Super Duper Stubborn. Always insistent on my own way of doing things. One result of which is I will have problems at work, especially with my collegues and superiors. Another repercussion is that although I might be able to get along okay with my gf, she'll suffer when she weds me cos I'm supposed to be so stubborn she'll go mad.. -.-. Ok, then he said I will definitely listen his words, one ear in, the other ear out. Who's the stubborn one here now??
ii) Never studies and will just go along with life with average grades.
Ok. At this point, let me elaborate first by saying he had an assistant who sat in during the "session". I didn't say anything much while the "master" was talking, just silently nodding away while he was in a sort of finger pointing, accusing tone of my character. After that session, the assistant brought us (my aunt, mum and myself) to another room.
At that point, I highlighted that the master might not be accurate cos although my results were mediocre till JC, I definitely think that my first class honours was not a fluke. Guess what the assistant said to me when I told him I did pretty well in Uni. "Oh, the master said that actually if u put in effort, you'll do very well!"
WHAT CRAP LORH! I took down all of what the master said and he said nothing of that sort.
Next, when he was recommending packages for me to "reborn" my 8 characters, which was like 12k! he couldn't even maintain eye contact with us! He was becoming more n more like a liar. Not only was he lousy at crapping, he was lousy as a salesman! Not that I'm advocating lying without battling an eyelid but... mmm...
I had seconds thoughts about the whole affair even before I entered his office. That place was huge! Decorated with lavish decors and rich lighting, fully air-conditioned and carpeted office space. The whole place was bigger than the whole row of my sch classrooms back in secondary school. It seemed that sales was the primary driving force for that "company", instead of consultations. No matter, it was more like a business than anything else.
If I were to learn anything from this, it would be to try to prevent these disasters from happening. Believe it or not, what do you think?
Revenge of the humble honey bee
Everything happens for a reason. The HoneyBee Effect. 因祸得福. There are just so many titles I can put for this particular entry.
Bees are known to die immediately after stinging someone or something, in the case of normal "working class" bees that is, from what I know. For weeks, I have discovered dead bees lying around the house during my weekly floor sweeping session on Sundays.
How and why the bees even bother to fly all the way to the 19th storey, and to die at the corner of the room for that matter, have been much of a mystery. Conspiracy theories include "Bee hives on the roof" and "Queen Bee scented Fan Blade". These seem the most logical of explanations for the dead bees that are often found in segments or with broken wings. Death by high-speed fan blades. >.<
Which brings me back to the "revenge". Apparently the scout bees were "killed in action" by the death blades of the fan; the colony must have sent a commando bee for the latest mission. I call it "Guerilla Kamakaze".
I was already on long term medication, "Cetirizine" for my drug allergy with could last for up to another 2 years! To put it simply, the medication is an antihistamine used to minimise inflammation (hives, or rashes to the layman).
Now, it was just like any other nights when I went to sleep after a bout of MSN and a nice, warm shower. As I slid into my blanket thinking of what dreams I could dream of, I felt a sharp acute pain on the underside of my right thigh where my hamstring is. My instant reflex was to jump up, turn on the lights and find the culprit.
There, lying at the position where my thigh used to be on the mattress, was the commando bee which had sacrificed itself. After hastily checking the bee if it was still alive and its butt for the sting, I took the nail-clipper to check for the sting dislodged on my thigh. I COULDN'T FIND IT! The wound was of a small but prominent red hue. Admist all the chaos of finding the sting and cleaning my wound, it has grown to the size of an average mosquito bite. Applying alcohol and calamine lotion was the only and next best thing to do at that time.
On the next day, the insect bite has grown to the size of my palm. The muscles around the area was stiff and it was slightly painful and relatively itchy. And I am experiencing this despite my daily dose of antihistamines; wondered how my body will react if I weren't on such medication. A case of my drug allergy trumping the sting?
Anyways, my colleague was rather worried for me because she had a friend who apparently died from an innocent ant bite! The next morning, I took to the doc and was given an injection of a rather heavy dose of antihistamines, 20ml if I weren't wrong. The swell didn't go down immediately, and it took 2 days of 30mg of Prednisolone for the bee sting to subside. The itch didn't, though.
I think I need to have a thorough cleansing of my blood hah!
Bees are known to die immediately after stinging someone or something, in the case of normal "working class" bees that is, from what I know. For weeks, I have discovered dead bees lying around the house during my weekly floor sweeping session on Sundays.
How and why the bees even bother to fly all the way to the 19th storey, and to die at the corner of the room for that matter, have been much of a mystery. Conspiracy theories include "Bee hives on the roof" and "Queen Bee scented Fan Blade". These seem the most logical of explanations for the dead bees that are often found in segments or with broken wings. Death by high-speed fan blades. >.<
Which brings me back to the "revenge". Apparently the scout bees were "killed in action" by the death blades of the fan; the colony must have sent a commando bee for the latest mission. I call it "Guerilla Kamakaze".
I was already on long term medication, "Cetirizine" for my drug allergy with could last for up to another 2 years! To put it simply, the medication is an antihistamine used to minimise inflammation (hives, or rashes to the layman).
Now, it was just like any other nights when I went to sleep after a bout of MSN and a nice, warm shower. As I slid into my blanket thinking of what dreams I could dream of, I felt a sharp acute pain on the underside of my right thigh where my hamstring is. My instant reflex was to jump up, turn on the lights and find the culprit.
There, lying at the position where my thigh used to be on the mattress, was the commando bee which had sacrificed itself. After hastily checking the bee if it was still alive and its butt for the sting, I took the nail-clipper to check for the sting dislodged on my thigh. I COULDN'T FIND IT! The wound was of a small but prominent red hue. Admist all the chaos of finding the sting and cleaning my wound, it has grown to the size of an average mosquito bite. Applying alcohol and calamine lotion was the only and next best thing to do at that time.
On the next day, the insect bite has grown to the size of my palm. The muscles around the area was stiff and it was slightly painful and relatively itchy. And I am experiencing this despite my daily dose of antihistamines; wondered how my body will react if I weren't on such medication. A case of my drug allergy trumping the sting?
Anyways, my colleague was rather worried for me because she had a friend who apparently died from an innocent ant bite! The next morning, I took to the doc and was given an injection of a rather heavy dose of antihistamines, 20ml if I weren't wrong. The swell didn't go down immediately, and it took 2 days of 30mg of Prednisolone for the bee sting to subside. The itch didn't, though.
I think I need to have a thorough cleansing of my blood hah!
Jul 23, 2008
it goes on
Day 9 (after the 1st sign of hives was detected): Saw another doc from polyclinic. Must say he's totally useless. Didnt bother to really find out what could be the cause of my allergy. I tried not scratching for the entire day. It was unbearable. During the interview/test session at mfa i was literally having cold turkey treatment. No meds, toilet breaks only after each individual test, stress of handling the test. Wrong answers minus marks! >.<
Ok, my point being, the itch was super unbearable. But I guess the redness on my neck and hands just appeared and grew by themselves, probably from the friction when I move in my long sleeved shirt. Hives. Tsk!
Anyways, the medicine that was prescribed for me was hardly potent. Cetirizine Dihydrochloride 10mg, Take 1 a day; and hydrocortisone 1% cream. I felt that after so long that my hives are still around, I should've been given epinephrine shots already.
As night set in, my itch began to intensify again. On top of that, my throat seemed to be constricted because I started to feel pain whenever I swallow. Bad day, I thought.
Day 10: I knew I was in no condition to go for band. I awoke from a call on my mobile. It was from shell, smth about a full day assessment centre event and a corresponding briefing.
Anyhow, the pain from swallowing was gone; but my shoulder and hand pains are back. Dunno if it's muscle or bone kind of pain and ache, just felt "ee! woo! ahh... aiyoh...crap!" It was like seas of needles and pinchers flowing thru my veins along my hands and at my shoulder region. The nodes of the pain and aches seemed to be at my wrists and the joint linking my arm and shoulder blade. Nodes meaning there is a continuous pain/ache feeling while the pain/ache feeling along the path to the shoulder is sort of a throbbing on/off kinda thing.
And, I dunno if it's a cold day or wad, I felt dam cold, throughout the day. At 3pm i felt it was a little too much and i settled into bed and only just woke up at 6 plus. The pain/ache is still there, though slightly lesser. Somehow my ankle and shin are kinda feeling that same achy-ness. Feel terrible. Topping it up like fire to a pile of shit is the itch behind my ears and upper back, and ankle.
When are these gonna go away...
Ok, my point being, the itch was super unbearable. But I guess the redness on my neck and hands just appeared and grew by themselves, probably from the friction when I move in my long sleeved shirt. Hives. Tsk!
Anyways, the medicine that was prescribed for me was hardly potent. Cetirizine Dihydrochloride 10mg, Take 1 a day; and hydrocortisone 1% cream. I felt that after so long that my hives are still around, I should've been given epinephrine shots already.
As night set in, my itch began to intensify again. On top of that, my throat seemed to be constricted because I started to feel pain whenever I swallow. Bad day, I thought.
Day 10: I knew I was in no condition to go for band. I awoke from a call on my mobile. It was from shell, smth about a full day assessment centre event and a corresponding briefing.
Anyhow, the pain from swallowing was gone; but my shoulder and hand pains are back. Dunno if it's muscle or bone kind of pain and ache, just felt "ee! woo! ahh... aiyoh...crap!" It was like seas of needles and pinchers flowing thru my veins along my hands and at my shoulder region. The nodes of the pain and aches seemed to be at my wrists and the joint linking my arm and shoulder blade. Nodes meaning there is a continuous pain/ache feeling while the pain/ache feeling along the path to the shoulder is sort of a throbbing on/off kinda thing.
And, I dunno if it's a cold day or wad, I felt dam cold, throughout the day. At 3pm i felt it was a little too much and i settled into bed and only just woke up at 6 plus. The pain/ache is still there, though slightly lesser. Somehow my ankle and shin are kinda feeling that same achy-ness. Feel terrible. Topping it up like fire to a pile of shit is the itch behind my ears and upper back, and ankle.
When are these gonna go away...
Jul 20, 2008
an omen it was
Call it pessimmism or self-fulfilling a "prophecy", this entry could serve as the only means to find out what was actually wrong with me should anything weird happen.
Na said the coma dream could be an omen. How right it was. Just on the night of Monday itself, the scalp was feeling unusually itchy. The following day, this happened:
Tuesday (15 Jul): A few small itchy bite marks spotted on both elbows. A few videos and 3 hours later, the rash broke out into a full blown hive. Affected areas include the throat, arms and... hmm... other areas >.<
Later in the afternoon, it was appearing that it's either I go to the doc or be entirely consumed by rashes. Doctor suspects allergic reaction to my acne meds, minocycline. Xyzal and Prednisolone were prescribed. At that time, prolonged fatigue had set in. In the next few days, I would sleep for an average of 12-14 hours each day.
Friday (18 Jul): I had decided agnst going for band on wed due to obvious scratchy reasons. On this day, something new occurred. A constriction and tightness at my chest area and a pain in my throat esp during swallowing. A localised inflammation of the respiratory / digestive tract is suspected. Previously, I thought that something was dislodged in my gullet.
Saturday (19 Jul): Morning was a fresh start for me. The itch was minimised and the pain in the throat seemed to have subsided. That moment was to be short-lived. Following sectionals and band prac in the afternoon, a sort of muscle-splitting pain was sensed on the shoulder area. Dinner was hardly enjoyable for the swallowing part was painful. Still, talking to friends had an effect of diversion from the itchiness, pain and sore-ness.
Sunday (20 Jul): Tuition with my 2 kids has never been this 辛苦; both my arms are now experiencing that muscle-splitting pain, esp at the joints. The itch was now of secondary concern. Panadol Extra was no match for the aches in my arms. Probably preparing for anymore weird symptoms that may appear after this, I thought I had to pen all these down, just in case it might come in useful.
I'll be consulting medical help from the skin centre on Monday for a likely allergic reaction from minocycline. So far, I've displayed many of the symptoms of such a reaction. Hopefully by stopping the meds, the side effects will subside... FAST!
grr... it's been a disturbing week for me...
Na said the coma dream could be an omen. How right it was. Just on the night of Monday itself, the scalp was feeling unusually itchy. The following day, this happened:
Tuesday (15 Jul): A few small itchy bite marks spotted on both elbows. A few videos and 3 hours later, the rash broke out into a full blown hive. Affected areas include the throat, arms and... hmm... other areas >.<
Later in the afternoon, it was appearing that it's either I go to the doc or be entirely consumed by rashes. Doctor suspects allergic reaction to my acne meds, minocycline. Xyzal and Prednisolone were prescribed. At that time, prolonged fatigue had set in. In the next few days, I would sleep for an average of 12-14 hours each day.
Friday (18 Jul): I had decided agnst going for band on wed due to obvious scratchy reasons. On this day, something new occurred. A constriction and tightness at my chest area and a pain in my throat esp during swallowing. A localised inflammation of the respiratory / digestive tract is suspected. Previously, I thought that something was dislodged in my gullet.
Saturday (19 Jul): Morning was a fresh start for me. The itch was minimised and the pain in the throat seemed to have subsided. That moment was to be short-lived. Following sectionals and band prac in the afternoon, a sort of muscle-splitting pain was sensed on the shoulder area. Dinner was hardly enjoyable for the swallowing part was painful. Still, talking to friends had an effect of diversion from the itchiness, pain and sore-ness.
Sunday (20 Jul): Tuition with my 2 kids has never been this 辛苦; both my arms are now experiencing that muscle-splitting pain, esp at the joints. The itch was now of secondary concern. Panadol Extra was no match for the aches in my arms. Probably preparing for anymore weird symptoms that may appear after this, I thought I had to pen all these down, just in case it might come in useful.
I'll be consulting medical help from the skin centre on Monday for a likely allergic reaction from minocycline. So far, I've displayed many of the symptoms of such a reaction. Hopefully by stopping the meds, the side effects will subside... FAST!
grr... it's been a disturbing week for me...
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