i really need to learn dancing...

the end of the world

i slept and woke up again. this time i dreamt some kind foreign beings were taking over the world. i dont know where most pple go but mi family was busy "altering" the house to create the perfect hideout.

and i remembered saying "no matter how we hide, as long as they come into our house we're dead"

robbed

i hadnt had such a vivid nightmare since a long time ago. so i had to blog this before i go back to sleep again and forget all about this.

In my dream I was back to my old house. I had a STUPID maid, and as I go on my story u'll soon find out why. I remembered the whole scene. my maid and I were the only one in the house. she was outisde in the living room doing stuff... i was preparing to go out.

i was walking out of the house after washing up. before i even made it to the door, i saw like 5 or 6 malay guys holding onto pots,toothpaste, toilet stuff actually... i was like "WTH?"they were walking out of mi house kitchen on the way to walk out. (my maid was like sweeping the floor as if nothing happened)

I stopped them and bellowed "what are you all doing?" one of them replied "oh we borrowing the things" I stared at one of them, assuming he was the "leader", and asked him to leave his hp number with me. He said "oh sure!! my number is 1-2-3-4-5-6-7. "WHAT?", i exclaimed. "You think i'm stupid or what? Auntie! how the hell they came in???" ( in mi mind i was thinking she must have left the door open and they just walked in)... but the scary part was she just continued sweeping the floor... as if she couldnt hear me. The 'leader' just looked at me blankly...seemingly speechless as to what number to tell me. I saw 2 handphones on the sofa. "Those must belong to them" i thought. I inched quickly towards the hp and grabbed one of the hp.

It was a bad move. In that purposeful move, I had enabled them to surround me and blocked the exit route out of mi house. We looked at each other intently, anticipating each other's movements. i brought the hp that i took (presumably one of the guys') and typed in my number. (stupid u must think, i should've directly dialled 999) i dunno is i fast or they slow. I heard my own phone ring. I followed the sound n quickly grabbed mi hp. they were closing in onto me. with whatever strength i had, i pushed my way through them and ran out of the house.

what i remembered next is being brutally beaten up. strangely i was dreaming of being beaten up in a third person pt of view. i was looking at miself from the sky. and watching helplessly as i was beaten. i didnt retaliate. punches n kicks were relentless upon me. i saw miself using mi hands to cover mi face and curled up mi legs on the floor to seemingly protect my vitals. i saw many bruises and quite abit of blood.

strandely again, i found miself walking on the road...this time as a 1st person.there were 2 hps in mi pocket. one that should belong to the 'leader'. he should've been stupid enough to forget taking it from me. it was an old model of nokia...ok that aside.

i walked n walked. i chanced upon a police post. it doesnt look like any i've seen before. it was a container, which had a sign that said "police musical club"...which makes no sense at all. but still shaken by mi own situation, i just walked in, wanting to report this audacious crime.

I told the whole story to the policewoman who was there. i was brought into this room where she took down mi statement.she reassured me that they were already tracking them. it seemed that they have been terrorising the estate and the police were already trying to track them down. she said they were to nab them that very night.

there were 2 other policemen on duty there. it had to be their change shift time. cos i saw from out the window the 2 policemen had changed into their plain clothes and walked off with their bags. after giving mi statement to that policewoman, i showed her the hp i took from the 'leader'. she just said "we'll look into it dont worry"

at this time, dunno i chicken or what, i didnt dare go back.in mi mind it kept flashing back the scene where they beat me up real bad. i was literally begging the policewoman to find me an alternative place to stay for the night. "This is a musical club, we do not haf any place for u to spend the night" (i didnt even realise it was like rubbish lor... i should've known then it was just a dream, but i still carried on dreaming)

"i'll try to do something about it. i can understand how shaken u feel right now..." As she finished speaking, she made her way to some other room where i was left alone in the "statement room".

to be continued...

A whole lot of WHAT IFs

so many things i should have done, so many things i should not have; but i choose to believe it's all necessary for the bigger picture, that the bad decisions were just part of the "best" path i was supposed to take in life

so if i had a time machine i wouldn't change anything at all, because i think that my life has been perfect so far.

i'm waiting to see how interesting life's gonna get from now, just hope it's not too arduous for me to take...

xmas's coming soon!! merry merry hohoho~~

if an asteroid were to hit in 2 weeks

- drive, house, tell

b4 that, tell , love, go

hope, work, find

hold, close, die

if i were to go into a coma

Although I would say life kinda sucks... I wouldn't want to trade anything I've experienced for a rerun because I love those memories, be it good or bad.

wanted to write down everything from pri sch onwards...but so lazy... so...
summary...

really glad to know so many nice pple so many nice frens. sometimes just talking to them... is better than any consolation when i'm down....and how... all my frens really helped made me a better person...how i would always remember the 13 hour MSN chat.... how i would remember the first time i get knee-ed in the stomach by a ger..... how fun it was to harmonise during kbox.... practicing mi very first duet....haha... how i ever won a mahjong round b4 one cycle.... how i even got hated by the girl i liked so much b4.... how i ever missed a person so much i think of her every night.... how i slacked my way thru jc playing soccer.... my 1st gold medal with the band...the 1st time my lips touched a ger's 1st 3 months orientation game.... my first big solo playing the bass clarinet....my 1st solo playing the Bb clarinet...how i wont forget the wmc trip where it was more saddening for me than happiness.... how i can be so moody at times.... how black my face looked when i'm angry.... the broken promises that were never fulfilled.... how i thought of being more patient with my family and friends...how i wanted to live outside and have my own apartment...how i dream of having a huge kitchen.... dream of being married and having kids....naming my daughter....how i would want to treat my daughter like a princess... and how i hope she gets all the looks from her mum insteead of me...how i loved cooking fried kway tiao and bao yuntun....and fried rice... how i like to improvise and change things...how i wanted to learn pop/jazz piano....how i always dream of winning the lottery one day to get rid of all the stupid debts....the 1st time i shoplifted..... the 1st time i broke the house light playing soccer at home...and the many other subsequent times we dug out money from the piggy bank to buy new fluorescent lamps.... the many time i wanted to tell you how much i really liked u but i dunno hesitate for wad fuck...how much i enjoyed miself playing maple...hving to know that amongst all the childish kiddos in maple...there are also very nice ones.... how i slept in front of mi laptop slashing the wall with mi bandit and died..... how under weird circumstances i saw my 1st porn video...how i used to motivate pple.... how i like to influence pple..... how i want the world to be a better place....how i wished i had superpowers....how i wished i had taken my chances..... how happy i was when i got back my results a year ago..... how happy i was when i look into ur eyes and see urs smiling back at mine... how i never failed to feel warmth inside me when i see ur smile.... how i ever thought that if i were to go into a coma i should tell someone to tell me all these....

oh btw, it applies to if i lose my memory leh...so there. pretty much a summary of my life. not a very interesting one but nevertheless i should be able to recall something should anything happen! great ! okies now.... gotta go back to mi spastic fyp again.... and.... if you're not my fren but some stranger reading this post...BUGGER OFF!!

mmmm!

New year's resolution

1) Be more patient with everyone (esp my family pple; cos i'm supposed to love them the most ><)

2) Start to care more about others

3) Know more pple (esp girls :P), cos i hardly have anyone to talk to! -.-

4) Use more of my brain b4 i make decisions/say anything

5) (secret), hahahaahaahahahaha... :P


ok i'm fine!! back to my crappy normal self... thanks for all the consoling ~~~

always always nice to have frens who would be around to talk to when the dark clouds come in